Worthless! In the second time around...

I don't know how to control myself most of the time. But I think this is the right way to have a break for falling inlove with somebody that is very impossible to be mine. I know he wants me, but its not like as i could. We're very apart and that's the greatest hindrance why he can't fall for me. At first I thought, what i felt is already love. Then, I realize I'm wrong and must i not suppose to be happen. Maybe, this is just a feeling that i over reacted. I must stop and help myself to avoid pain that I will surely gain if I continue this stupidity. I can almost see myself with that man together, suddenly, the facts arrives and keep telling me you can never reach that dream and my vision vanished and makes me feel failure again. Need some strength, and sign because for real I was being discourage when he keeps telling me I'm young. It only means that he will never like and want me like what i do. Loser! Worthless in the second time around....

Sweet Stranger!!!

Its been a couple of year that I left my heart in the old sad forest..Now, maybe its the time to pick them up and bring in my world of fantasy. Yes fantasy, the situations and things that only happen in our dreams for it is very impossible...Yes! I know what you are thinking...everything is possible, but someday u will realize what possible really means...
Well, i just woke up from my fantacy world and now trying to reach out the reality. How sad, because in reality, full of doubts, insecurity, negativity and etc. Hmmm i used to be like that before but not...Woooola! i don't easily get mad, sad, and don't feel worthless no more. Because of the stranger i was once met in a certain social sites.He is very kind, very positive and intellectual. When he speaks towards me, he is very sweet god fearing and oh did i already say to much about him?hehe in fact i have lots of great words i can describe him. He is now my newest inspiration, my dream man and hopefully my soulmate... Sometimes he became my drug for feeling so addicted with him...And love the feeling being addict! To be honest love making a great fantasy with him in my dreams. Do i really bad for that? How about having a strange feeling with a guy having a long gap regarding with our age?haha crazy isn't it? Well, goodluck to me whatever it takes...Its fate, i need to work on it..

Conflict between the Heart and the Brain

I hate you but i still love you!

I HATE YOU! I WANT YOU BACK!

Fix my broken heart...

Wanting him back doesn't mean he wants me too..

I should know we're he stands...How sad!

I can still be possibly nothing!Again it's superworthless in these sense...

The EX' must be an X for a reason!

Refresh..

arffff:(

MY BEST FRIEND♥

Today I found a friend,Who knew everything I felt.She knew my every weakness,And the problems I've been dealt.
She understood my wonders,And listened to my dreams.She listened to how I felt about life and love,And knew what it all means.
Not once did she interrupt me,Or tell me I was wrong.She understood what I was going through,And promised she'd stay long
I reached out to this friendTo show her that i careTo pull her close and let her knowHow much I need her there
I went to hold her handTo pull her a bit nearerAnd realized that this perfect friend I foundWas nothing but my mirror.

source:http://www.indianchild.com/best_friend_poems.htm

TRUE FRIENDSHIP

True friendship isn't seen with the eyes, it is felt with the heart.

When there is trust, understanding, loyalty, and sharing.

True friendship is a rare feeling, but when it is foundIt has profound impact on our well-being, strength, and character.

True friendship does not need elaborate gifts Or spectacular events in order to be valuable or valued.

To ensure long-lasting quality and satisfaction,True friendship only needs a few key ingredients:

Undying loyalty, unmatched understanding, unsurpassed trust, Deep and soulful secrets, and endless sharing.

These ingredients, mixed with personality and a sense of humor,Can make a friendship last a lifetime!

This is just a thank you, my friend, for all the wonderful and colorfulSpecial ingredients You've brought to my life!Pass this on to such a friend!


source:http://www.indianchild.com/inspirational_friendship_poems.htm

In my loneliness,i found you..

Friendship is not just the name of anordinary feeling. but it is the name of the feelings of understanding, honesty and frankness between two persons. and these feelings keep the two very special persons bounded together and such a friendship lies in two of us.

- Sahar Ashraf